I didn't get into the Berlin Talent Campus 2008.
Damn it I hate these beauty show competitions.
But it's probably for the best -- I don't have the time to travel there anyway in Feb. Plus, I was clear about my goals for the BTC: wanting to learn more about financing films plus connecting with stars (which is the single most important factor needed to get distribution). And I felt they were thin on both topics -- and they probably knew it.
And, of course, there isn't exactly a shortage of white American guys trying to make movies. There are plenty of people who are more deserving than I in less fortunate situations with fewer filmmaking resources. I'm cool with that. I don't need BTC the way others might.
But still, I hate losing. It feels so demeaning.
I just need to focus on making IWW. That's it. Everything else (competitions, "industry" bullshit) is noise.